when i was in high school, jr. high, or even earlier i think…i remember feeling so gross, hating the way i looked. i thought i was fat, and ugly, and everything about me was horrible.
i think it started even earlier, when i was much younger, probably but i felt it most acutely during high school for sure. out of sorts and beyond uncomfortable in my own skin.
the irony is that now? now…well, now i would literally murder to look like i used to. if i could have that body back, be the way i used to be? would literally murder.