But. Is it even possible to just be whelmed?
and i’m always sad
sometimes i sit here and have a million and one panic attacks over all the things i always wanted to do with my life that am just way to fucking old to do now. old and busted.
i feel like i’m never going to get out from under …all of this.
how much longer am i going to be healthy and able enough to work? how much do i need to earn to make sure i can live? what if i never own a home? what is going to happen when i get old?
i’m lately plagued with a very real and very terrifying fear of ending up broke, alone, and cold and homeless. i’m actually paralyzed by the fear of ending up homeless in my old age or even not so old age. 10 years from now, what if i’m homeless? what…how…ugh i don’t even know how to stop it. but i’m terrified.