la casa has been properly outfitted with a Very Special Christmas Tree, complete with caution tape tree skirt & strapped on buddy christ. as well as twinkling dreidel lights (courtesy of scooter). we went to the store today to get our very own tree, and then to meffid to pick up all of her spiffy decorations. stockings tacked up on the wall hopefully high enough that the demon spawn…er, “lola” doesn’t claw them to shreds. the streets are covered in blankets of muddy, pee-infested, slushy snow. and the temperatures have dropped to freezing hell. hooray, the holidays are here!
i still have so much crap to wrap up before the holidays swing around full-force and yet i only have a little over a week to do it in. on the one hand, i get to spend some time with my little brother, who is awesome. on the other hand, i have to face the mother and languish out in southeastern bumfuckville — aka land of no innernets, no cellphone, no movies, no bars, nothing open past 10 pm except for walmart, nothing. waht i’d really like is to spend the holidays quietly with the people i love…unfortunately, that is not going to be. and anyone i actually want to see in colorado will be hard to get ahold of as i’m most likely going to be screeched at by She Who Is Evil the entire time.
that and the fact that i’ve already sunk hundreds of dollars into this trip and cannot get out of it in any way shape or form. furthermore, it’s costing me money to leave. time off work is not compensated. and sure, i can try to make it up with overtime, as i have this week and will in the coming one, but…that wears me out. so horridly. which means i dawdle on all the other things i should be doing. fuck. i hate this. there’s not enough time. and fundage is so scarce. everything is sort of piling onto me all at once, and i am rapidly failing at managing to keep everything afloat.
meh. fuck this…i’m not in the mood for it right now.