and thus, with a sip of delicious scotch, the year 2006 is here.
holy mother of god am i happy that bastard, pig-fucking, sonofamotherlesswhore year ’05 is over.
’05 was not the worst year ever, but it definitely was pretty damn close. high in the running, you know? thankfully, i’m beyond thrilled that it’s over. and of course, as i’ve stated, any year that starts by innaugurating a bush cannot be a good one.
everything was so up and down this last year i don’t even know where to begin. this time in ’05 i was still stuck in colorado for the holidays, and came home to be sick & miserable for the next 2-3 months. and failure. some of my biggest fuckups in the world happened in ’05. more than once i found my entire life in complete ruins. broken & just plain fucked up. and it’s been hard. i don’t want to whine and bitch — which of course instantly makes this seem like nothing but whining and bitching — but i don’t know how i made it through everything…especially considering all the countless times i’ve wanted nothing more than to just merely give up.
i lost everything, i ruined everything, i sank farther into debt, i was used & then had to sit back helpless as the fucking disgusting cretin responsible got away, my apartment was broken into, my family fell apart a little more, i got fatter, i realized someone i thought i trusted & loved just plain doesn’t care…and a whole bunch more other bullshit i’d rather not think about.
bottom line is, you couldn’t pay me to do it again.
but then there are the good things — and there were a few — that happened in ’05. first & foremost, with the exception of the fat-fuck-who-pees-everywhere, i have the best living situation of my entire life. ever. or at least, since i was 4 and we were staying at my gram’s house. sure, my apartment is small & expensive. but scooter is the bestest roommate ever. every.other.roommate i’ve ever had has sucked so much, i didn’t know it could be this awesome.
then there is the entertainment scene. since august alone i’ve seen so many god damned awesome shows i can’t believe how lucky i am. even more awesome, 2006 is going to start with yet another kick-ass show! hooray! institute, beck, los lonley boys, franz ferdinand, busta rhymes, broken social scene, lcd soundsystem, NIN, and mos def & talib kweli…how fucking kick ass is that??!?!! in just mere months! with a few robby roadsteamer shows tossed in to boot. i touched gavin rossdale. i touched mos def!!! it really doesn’t get any better than that…really, it doesn’t!
i got an awesome — though revoltinginly adorable & somewhat destructive — kitten nearly a year ago in ’05. and i can’t help it, the little demonspawn has me wrapped around her teeny, tiny paw. bitch. but i wouldn’t give her up for anything…though i could do without the upset trash cans and shredded window decorations (and i’m sure scooter would prefer to not have her earrings scattered to the four corners of the earth).
and there’s my friends…my family may be an unending source of stress & worry & conflict, but my friends…those are the people i love and care about and depend on. no matter how much time passes, i can always pick up a phone, write an email or whatever and gravy is there, brubaker is there, kim is there, robbie and sabrina. my oldest, my nearest, my dearest. and i love them. any time i go home, no matter how long it’s been, we pick up right where we’ve left off. that is my family. that is the family in my heart.
and i have been lucky enough to come across some remarkable people since i moved out here from good ol’ southeastern bumfuckville. (despite how depressingly long ago that was…) number one, my midget: whom i’ve known the longest, whom i’ve always loved, and whom i definitely need to keep the withdrawals away. i love you, midget. please feel better & take care of yourself. a pineapple does not thrive without her midget, you know. and sometimes, i can’t believe how long it’s been. how much we know, all the things we’ve been through…power duo, yo.
scooter, of course, is the best. i mean, who else can say that my pussy has been in their pants when i’m not even home?! who else will randomly drive to methuen in the search for a super-walmart that originates by rollerblading? who else understands the power of ewan mcgregor’s thick, massive nuts?! heh. shackin’ up with my common law wife was the best ever.
and of course, there’s the boy…i joke a lot, but really, i am very damn lucky that he’s around. and very damn lucky that he knows mr. daniels is my first love…but that i share.
then there’s jeanne & jen c. & jonathan. and all i have to say about that, is it’s totally awesome when you work with people you really love. because it makes dealing with all the crazy other shit a lot better than when you’re working with morons you can’t stand. while at my day job, i’ve been lucky enough to run across a few people that are pretty damned cool, and definitely make the day go by much easier.
basically, i suppose the one thing i’ve ‘learned’ this past year is who my real friends are. and for those i am immensely grateful. of course, it’s never fun finding out that people you thought you loved & trusted are only using you, or just plain don’t care…but in the long run, i suppose it’s for the best.
but, pretending to be optomistic: i have a good job (two of them), lovely friends, an awesome roommate, an adorable kitty, more concerts lined up, and the best boy ever…and of course, i’ll always have mr. daniels.
so here’s hopin’ for a halfway decent new year!
i love you, pineapple!!! happy ’06!!!!